現在不用上班, 哪來的MONDAY BLUE呢? 記得以前上班, 特別是星期一, 總會很難過, 在床上典來典去十萬分不願意起床. 現在雖已沒有無無聊聊的工作, MONDAY BLUE仍然來襲. 也許, 叫LABOUR BLUE更適切. 其實只是不想在沒有心情時被逼工作而已. 不過有誰不是被甚麼逼著工作呢? 是錢也好, 將來也好, 是生活無聊也好. 在這陽光明眉而帶微涼的日子, 真該 聽聽BOSSA NOVA , 在籐椅上玩玩貓休休閒閒看一下書倒頭睡個懶覺. 是的, 在上班日就應任意妄為一番. 年輕的秘密是甚麼? 就是任性囉.

今天實在不想工作, 未有籐椅和貓就只好跑到髮型屋任意恤了個髮, 在那椅子呆了上個小時, 聽著走音(又或是過於激動)的許志安和楊千樺, 差點睡著了. 回到家中, 我又想起周末到過的西貢, 見那無窮無盡的大海和驚濤拍浪. 一個人在家中, 實在太容易分心走神, 面對著星期一, 只有無力呀 --- 而這關於勞役的掙扎, 似乎要持續一輩子的. 真是現代人的悲哀...嗚乎嗚乎.






扒在崖邊腑視...真的膽戰心驚.


破邊洲

I have been thinking about the lifestyle that makes possible a successful philosopher/theorist. It seems to me solitude, and an uneventful life is most desirable for creating that vast thinking space necessary for an academic. That's why during those centuries when life was quiet, in a world with no television, no internet, no city, no distraction...that people could concentrate on books but nothing else. There was nothing to do but to read. It was only through books that one could find refuge and entertainment. But life has changed now. We live right next to somebody, we're always at the centre of some happenings in the city, the world is only one click away from us, and we can travel so easily across cultures. We are exposed to various stimulations and attractions that weren't available to our ancient and wise predecessors. and more importantly, the world now is functioned by collaboration rather than contemplation; it is about projects rather than solitary one-man work; the majority of things are about people instead of ideas. It has become increasingly difficult to become a philosopher/theorist as such, because it is not what the natural/social conditions favour. The value and contribution of solitary work to the world has depreciated a great deal -- in this globalized and connected world so abounds with people. No man is an island. This is just more true than ever.

Perhaps acquiring knowledge isn't all that solitary an activity? Don't people say truth reveals itself in debate and discussion; don't people see the point of group discussion; learning is principally a GROUP activity, and one learns better in dialogues and discussion.Who say an academic needs a solitary lifestyle? but still, so much time is needed to decipher the piles of text, reading is certainly a luxury - not simply because every one is always experiencing a lack of time, but also that lack of contemplation space and attitude-in this modern world where we're made so conscious we're living in a world full of people and events and one will be missing a lot if he is to stay inside that intellectual vacuum. We're living in a modern city, a metropolitan one. One can't always enjoy the solitude enjoyed by those in the old days. Perhaps in this setting, one should go with the flow, and do something social. That is to take advantage of our time. A smart deed.

There are conditions for every game. and so are ours today.

心思思想學水墨畫這麼久, 終於TAKE ACTION.

前幾天去藝術館看丁衍庸的畫展, 實在喜歡他的畫, 活潑而恬憩, 只有意筆水墨才有這等境界. 比那些賣弄的"當代中國畫"好看多了, 不過我總覺得"當代中國畫"不是玩味的畫, 過於講求意識和媒體運用, 跟美與中國文化都差了一段距離. 行下行下, 發現丁衍庸原是莫一點的老師!!! 大半年前就想跟他學, 但因緣際會下學了書法, 今天痛下決心打電話給莫老師, 下星期可以去試堂 :) 好期待!!!!!!! 久違了這種期待呀!



http://www.eden-mok.com/about/index.htm
http://www.lcsd.gov.hk/CE/Museum/Arts/chinese/exhibitions/exhibitions01_oct08_02.html

琴棋書畫, 真是非常非常遙遠的目標......

終於看了卡夫卡的變形記. 許久沒有一天一氣看一整本書, 許久沒有書能勾起這樣的衝動.

合上書, 覺得只有沈默才合適,為Gregor默哀. 下次見了蟲, 我應該會想起他的故事吧, 也許要對他們手下留情, 又或是更親切一些, 你怎知道他們不是人變的呢? 會不會有天醒來...我也變了蟲呢?

 

上班族愛談飲飲食食(topic夠universal，子曰，食色性也呀)，工作得這樣辛苦他們的大假一般拿來去旅行(如你說放假待在香港十個人有十一個都會驚訝…而他們更可能是覺得你隱瞞為了不買手信)。有個同事，幾個月間已經問我好幾次有沒有旅行計畫(當然，也可能因為除了這些我們沒有另外更讓人感興趣的話題)。

 

為什麼去旅行？為增廣見聞？為感受異國文化？雖說讀萬卷書不如行萬里路，但就我的經驗而言，旅行對於行者的 “impact” 一般很小。就是最有深度最刻苦的旅行也鮮能改變一個人的思維或是根深柢固的生活模式。

 

旅行更像是一種出走。不知道誰人說過，旅行的意義是離開。不錯的，每次搭飛機飛離香港地面那陣子總有陣竊喜，像是背叛了香港一切的乏味和日常，好潚灑，好任性。但這只屬那些還有些許叛亂情緒心境尚且狂傲開放的年青人。

 

不適用於中年以上的人，上班族，或是喜歡服從穩定之人。旅行「燴炙人口」，而且將要更「燴炙人口」的(你看呀，周末時候人們不再去甚麼郊區遠足的，最新的戰場在台北曼谷或是東莞!)。現在所謂旅行，有一種新意義，旅行為的是彰顯自己的自由，驅趕對於生活的無力感和無能感，行使 “安排生活”一欄那本該屬於自己的自由。

 

工作上班確實太刻板無聊，佔的時間又長，朋友開始叫這做「必要之惡」，沒辦法，鬼叫三餐一宿乃是生活所需咩。在工作中很難找到人性化的意義，不過幸好日復一日時間很快流走(都說時間不等人)。慢慢就開始習慣這種流水式的生活節奏，慢慢也就察覺自己原來沒有做過任何革命性的事沒有甚麼太大的成就。慢慢地在內心積累了一腔無奈和忍耐，一種反動力，一股向外需索的衝動。待得他們無法忍耐，就去個旅行解決吧—— 在名山大川、異國風情中間，自我感覺良好，也因為擴大了踏足過的版圖，加豐的知識和見聞而滿心歡悅，覺得自己完成了比工作一年更富意義的任務。歎一句「這麼辛苦工作都是值得的」，頃刻間那種對生活的不滿和無力灰飛煙滅。那力量本能促成一些人類中非常美好的改變，不過非常可惜，他沒有從那方向發展。

 

為了平衡工作的無聊，消滅那種生活平淡而欠缺成就的感覺，人們是會 “間唔中”去下旅行的。這好像消化系統，吃了這麼多，不吐不快，當時要出一出，不然怎麼繼續？這叫人有三急….或者精神自瀆。總而言之，去完了，爽一爽，一切又重回往常的軌道，繼續生活的周期。上班、下班、放假、旅行、上班……

 

旅行不會對旅人帶來太多，旅行為的本來就是鬆馳身心，“去下旅下囉”，該是很輕很輕的一件事，輕輕鬆鬆把人重納入軌道中。不知從甚麼時候開始，這concept變得天經地義…這樣 “間唔中去下旅行”很 “正常”。有時會想，也許生活繃緊一點更好的，人感覺會敏銳些。不過我們畢竟都太愛惜自己。